Dreams

I have been taking my new medications. They are no longer making me feel sick. I still don’t sleep all night, but I’ve noticed when I do sleep it is a deeper sleep.

Last night I had a dream about lots of spiders and their webs everywhere. Apparently I have a lot of anxiety, which I do. I’m stressing about money.

I also had a dream about taking a pregnancy test. It came out positive. In the dream, I told my ex-husband it was his baby. Pregnancy is dreams represents new things – I’m ready for some new things and hopefully a break. To dream about an ex is actually supposed to be directed toward yourself. I completely believe that. I hate myself for spending as long as I did with him. I hate myself even more for continuing to sleep with him after the divorce. I haven’t been with him for four years, but I still hate myself for it.